Don't be afraid to go against what is expected of a well-behaved young lady. However, do not slander decorum out of a rebellious spirit, only stray from it when it is not the best path to follow.
I promise you that He is still there. "Even thought the waves are a takin' you under, hold on just a little bit longer. He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger. This pain ain't gonna last forever; things can only get better. Believe me this is gonna make you stronger; Gonna make you stronger." ~Stronger by Mandisa